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─ ·・・・・・· ─Meet the Yumesona/Self Insert:
Wally & Eiden (Reimu / レイム・霊夢)
sometimes spelled 'Raemu' under their novelist pseudonym─ ·・・・・・· ─[Redacted] is a person that has DID living in Japan after uprooting their life in [redacted country] to start anew. In a haze from the day-to-day, trying to make find their place as a career writer, they were desperate for a new start. The turning point came through meeting a certain idol in a chance meeting through a work friend insisting they go with to a live performance.With the sights and sounds overwhelming, they felt out of place. The moving bodies and flashing stage lights gave them a headache that shifted their surroundings into something distant, almost drowning when the fog machines pool viscous smoke at everyone's feet. [Redacted] brushed off this thought as a delusion from overstimulation and dissociation: they swore the performer with black curls and glasses had locked eyes with them in the crowd, expression flashing confusion at whatever their own reflected back. They made the excuse to disappear to the venue's bar and pretended to drink to pass the time.After the show, [Redacted] reluctantly accepted to take a spare backstage pass to meet the idols. Gods, they just wanted to go home to their shitty apartment and pass out, but stayed because this friend was adamant they do. Waiting in a too long line with too much excitement, there's a stillness they perceived beyond it all. The idols seemed to share some sort of connection that drove them to stare when they reached the front of the line. Focused, notable. A few handshakes participated in out of obligation, the red-head idol had been the source of that intense stillness while the ones with black hair and blonde had been warm. While all of them had been polite, the intense one had spontenously, yet discreetly, sleigh-handed an item to [redacted] during the handshake; a cork bottle with no more than a shot glass amount of mysterious liquid with ominous label saying "drink me." [Redacted] lingered on where their hands met, as the redhead's stare almost burned from how intense it was.That redhead, as his name card read "Natsume" up close, had said one line letting go of their hand, "If you want a change, the magic already inside of you. Trust in us to help you use it."Not really having a strong grasp of personal identity, the two main alters of their system latch onto other people, copying their mannerisms as a way to blend in and survive. They had dismissed the ramblings of a weird pop idol as serious then. It was also as absurd as the idea of thinking that idol with that black hair couldn't take his eyes off them. A silly daydream to cope being dragged to another social situation they rather would have avoided because they continued to fail at standing up for themselves. Wandering through life at other people's whims, a slave to perceptions. Attractive man meeting their eyes or not, it can't be anything more than that! That bottle stayed untouched in their apartment for weeks until curiosity struck on a February night. What if that idol's omen turned out true? Cork popped, bottle chugged with no going back on the decision. At first, nothing seemingly happened. Days, weeks pass into spring, before said work friend made the comment, "You look so different now. What's your new routine?"Nothing had been different. Since they tended to allow their body to be unperceivable to themselves, it prompted a scary action. That day, [Redacted] gazed in the mirror with overwhelming disbelief. Before, their mind would blank out the physical appearance of their body to spare them the trouble of how distressing it looks. That day, Wally realized he had taken the appearance of an idol he had been mirroring to get by in his daily life.Embarrassing daydreams brought to reality, his appearance matching what he never thought could be physically possible without impossible forces at play. As panic set in, their body morphed to match the two of them flooding consciousness at once in a shifting set of features. Light blue to sandy blond, irises turned somewhere between a blue-violet, skin and even realizing their clothes did not fit their shape they way they had remembered. The red-headed idol had given him something that gave them the ability to shapeshift.The realization brought forth another change: [Redacted] didn't need to be their forever name. A sense of collective identity, and the name "Reimu," had replaced it.─ ·・・・・・· ─This is a work-in-progress and more a summary of how F/Os officially got together with Reimu, whether it was through Wally or Eidento-do: Tsumugi's meeting, Zarina's first meet, explaining platonic and familiar yume connectionsWe are always happy to ramble about our lore. Thank you if you read our sona's origin story.─ ·・・・・・· ─

Notes: Wally and Eiden's designs in their universe are based off of Eichi and Wataru in-universe, like factive/introjects of those people in-universe (the people behind the sona thinks it's funny to incorporate who they are introjected off of in this way, so its for the bit).Please use the reference sheet from venusinta as the official designs for them if making fan art (not that I think people will outside of our own commissions).The shapeshifting aspect of the sonas here is based on someone who is white-indigenous irl. That means there are artworks that are pre-solidification of their reference sheet. Most art going forward will be adjusted based on if it's Wally or Eiden in front (Wally = blue/silver hair with more semi-formal wear, Eiden = blond with more casual wear; Wally is more attached to Tsumugi and Eiden to Zarina). Earlier arts might feature them with lighter skin than in later arts for this reason.Perhaps it's vulnerable to admit, the person behind the sona has body dysmorphia and uses the sona as a way to cope with it. Any sort of inflammatory comments about assumed appearance are not welcome.

Artists Featured:
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venusinta (VGen/Bluesky)
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humbuns (VGen/Bluesky)
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Himina (VGen)
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daykuronuma (VGen/Facebook)
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jannadbunny (Bluesky)
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salqfaiths (Discord)
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eekykins (Tumblr)
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Shiorin / reversiblekiss (ko-fi, yume intro)

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misc works that are from other random projects

Good Enough #2: Issue of Skill piece
Hibiki Wataru/Tenshouin Eichi ⭑ General ⭑ 458 words - short fic
https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1yfZS9K4iskhX740-jRx-D_2MThbtPV911aW6BC25Tyw/edit

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Putting this quick addendum due to the fact the old Internet Archive link is not working that I held, so allow me to record what evidence of what I originally read and identified with as the term "schrodien":The original term was coined by a Tumblr user called vesicelestial and they state the definition as..."Schrodien [SHRO-dee-in] is an othellic* term describing an individual who has an identity that contradicts or appears to contradict itself at one or more points. This could be for many reasons, such as collecting terms and two or more terms contradicting, intentionally calling yourself two conflicting things for the reason of having conflicting identities, having identities that at first glance appear to be contradictory but actually fit together, and having a nuanced identity that doesn't actually conflict but is incorrectly perceived as conflicting.Schrodien is at its core about the experience of having a "confusing" identity that the user or others perceive as contradictory, whether it is or not."Examples given by the coiner of what would potentially fit under this label, but not exclusively, included..."...lesboys, isogender, traumaendo systems, systems who have conflicting identities due to being present in different headmates, an agender person who also collects genders, an alloaro person who is incorrectly perceived as either alloromantic or asexual, and some forms of alterhumanity."Personal: We/I resonated with this term due to multiple reasons; we are a DID system that also experiences spiritual plurality due to our spiritual practices/beliefs, our sexuality is considered gaybian because bisexual doesn't capture how we feel our bisexuality/multisexuality will never be heterosexual due to being genderfluid and multigendered (and that depending who you ask in our system, they will give you different answers to their sexuality), even if we're transmasculine as intended presentation. Even the fact that we're in polyamorous relationships despite being aroace feels like another contradiction of identity that we experience.Is it pedantic? Possibly, but it feels like I have to be, otherwise we often get treated like we are trying to be frustrating at describing our identity on purpose. This term meets that itch to remind others that if I can be this multifaceted of a sentient being on this planet called Earth, then so can you.source: https://www.tumblr.com/vesicelestial/685267088321986560/schrodien (If the link is now dead, this was the original coining post that I originally had the archived link for before that ALSO died...)

* for Othellic, this term doesn't have a clear cut definition for what it means as a modifier. It was coined by a now deactivated user named kenochoric and described a modifier term for identity labels that seem to "flip by a situation," loop, two sides of a coin, feel impossible to explain, or contradict each other. It's often seemed to be used with identity markers that have contradicting, seemingly beyond two dual poles of a spectrum, mirrored, or infinitely malleable interpretations of identity without those identities needing to be inherently othellic. Even my description does not give justice to how many have described how this term may or may not relate to themselves.source: https://www.tumblr.com/neoumbrellatime/782588667715846144/othellic-an-umbrella-term-for-things-that-flip-by (this relates to othellic as a modifer term, but it is a reblog and may vanish one day)

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