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Hi!

✼ 25↑ / Adult
✼ Enstars + DBD main, multi-fandom
✼ Neurodivergent; System / Plural
✼ White Indigenous + 2Spirit
✼ Tsumugi Aoba + Zarina Kassir yume (see my byf tab for "sharing" boundaries)
✼ I block freely; follow =/= endorsement of views

Ensemble Stars!! ✥ SwitchP, fineP - Tsumugi, Wataru, Eichi, Nagisa, and Kanna are faves.Dead by Daylight ✥ "Stats Carrd" here, Jeff & Zarina main + Huntress main.Eternally in ship brainrot; watamugi / tsumuwata, wataei, tsumunatsu, tsumuei, madakoha, shumika, esuyume, ibahaji, keileo [not fixed for any dynamic, only mild preference kinda reflected in the names left/right placement]Misc Fandoms; Currently Into / Getting Into ✥ Castlevania, Stranger Things, Cult of the Lamb, Honkai: Star Rail (only fanworks rn), Genshin Impact (only fanworks rn) [I have a lot of misc ships I might interact with]Other Interests ✥ literature / reading, linguistics / anthropology, bead crafts, peace & ethics studies, horror mediaI am currently in college hell for either an English major or MFA in Creative Writing, so been on a long hiatus for writing fanfic and have deleted most of my works or orphaned them. Want to be a novel writer one day, but for now, in my writing training arc and life experience training arc.I have a few zine works out there credited as "lovedbyajester" or "Song-at-Blue-Hour" for Ao3 works. I use the former pseud a lot more now, not so much the latter one. I am still figuring out my identity as a writer, so it's not uncommon for me to orphan works or use anon collections, yet still connect my works back to me when feeling comfortable to share them. I feel better in this weird state of "seen, but not focused on" for mental health reasons... for now, I guess.日本語を勉強します。Um, game accomplishments and things I'm proud of, click here.

Blue / レイム

✥ aka Wally, Eiden
✥ I go by he/they/dove
✥ I'm a ♓︎ sun / ♒︎ moon
✥ Author of dozens of orphaned fanfiction, you likely know me as "watamugi NTR fic guy"

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DISCLAIMER: I actually don't care about "DNIs" that much, but I do fuck with having good boundaries, so here's my baggage you need to be aware of, or might be a clarifier why you're blocked.I do not adhere to "proship" or "anti" DNI criteria, because that doesn't actually tell me what you support or against. You are just using a useless buzzword as far as I'm concerned and I no longer use any of these labels because they are useless at communicating an effective stance on anything.

I have different boundaries for my yumes and specific characters related to me having DID/OSDD; I care about my mental health, so I'll just be clear and blunt with my boundaries. Some like that about me, others hate me for it.

Characters/Media I have Specific Boundaries For:The Boundaries in Question:
Tsumugi AobaYume/Fictional Other (source) + Alter who has Source Attachment Issues: Selective Sharing + Alter who blocks people who are possessive of the character in source (i.e blocks "doubles DNI" and "non-sharing yumes" for mutual comfort, makes exceptions if they follow us first); OK w/ doubles, not OK w/ character hate or mischaracterization in canon, call me "Mugi" if you know I'm in front yet don't refer to me as Wally or Eiden's fictional other.
Zarina KassirYume/Fictional Other: we are Non-Sharing for her, except don't mind her being shipped with other canon characters.
Wataru HibikiIntroject / Alter - OK w/ doubles, not OK w/ character hate or mischaracterization in canon, call me "Wally" if you know I'm in front.
Eichi TenshouinIntroject / Alter - OK w/ doubles, not OK w/ character hate or mischaracterization in canon, call me "Eiden" if you know I'm in front.
Aventurine + ArgentiOtherhearted - OK w/ doubles, no "source talk" or past life talk (makes us dissociate if talked about too much + don't like talking about our religious beliefs regarding reincarnation)
Ensemble Stars!Parts/alters who are introjects off of other characters from the franchise: not OK w/ character hate when in front, don't assume they are 1:1 to their source character, and do not treat them as their source character literally (just don't be weird about introjects, talk to them normally as you would another person if they feel comfortable enough to talk w/ you)

The bolded ones are the more enforced ones due to fandom interactions, the none bold are the ones that do come up time-to-time as issues.

Before you follow...

✥ I try to avoid fandom discourse, including censorship/"problematic media" discourse talk; I refuse to use the labels "proship" or "anti" to label where I stand on it, other than I do engage with "problematic media" and I have the media literacy to not let it shape my reality or break my moral code. I wish more people were like that.
✥ If you are a BlueSky list maker, I do not wish to be added to either side of the fiction discourse for blocklists; my follows =/= endorsement of views or your projections of my views; many of these types of lists falsely label people for views in black/white ways that are useless or for encouraging harassment by existing. You may add me to certain discourse stance blocklists if they are properly curated and not generalized to the point of redundancy. I block and openly criticize those who make misleading blocklists!
✥ I can be pretty "vent-heavy" due to this being a personal account; I swear a lot and doompost, say I want to die a lot. If it's not obvious, I'm a yapper when I have a lot of time.
✥ I'm autistic, have ADHD, and have BPD, so I am a bit limited in my social awareness at times, often forgetful, and not always emotionally stable; I end up softblocking people during dissociative episodes when rejection triggered then refollowing often because I remake my account or come out of my episode realizing what I did later on sometimes days to weeks later. Sorry for any inconvenience that might cause, it's unfortunately something that tends to happen every few months.
✥ ^ I have DID/OSDD, but I treat it more like DLC to my already existing PTSD and BPD, because those are the conditions that this disorder makes much worse for me, especially social rejection and ghosting people without remembering I did so until after the fact. I hope that adds needed context if we do become friends or mutuals.
✥ I like messy dynamics in fiction, especially gorey horror media and properly-tagged "dead dove" type of ship content (I don't post it though, except maybe mentions in text posts); I write and engage with abusive ship dynamics and am media literate enough to do so. I don't see 1st year/3rd year ships as an issue in fictional context, but prefer that all involved are clearly adults if sexual content is involved (obviously). I do occasionally share ships that fit as 1st/3rd year or larger age gap in canon ships; I trust that you will mute/block tags accordingly, as I do my own NOTPs and triggering content.

Common Reasons I Block...

...✥ ... Malicious/misleading blocklist creator; I am aware I am on a "BlueSky's Worst" list from list creator's who added me for simply blocking them, and to another for not supporting their ableist and sanist list targeting people with stigmatized health conditions. I block lots of people for abusing moderation tools.
...✥ ... Discriminates against anyone based on race/ethnicity, religion, queer identity, neurodiverse experiences, etc OR uses their identity to gatekeep in a way to oppress others in their own communities: Usually identity gatekeepers + enforcers of bio essentialism; such as transmedicalists, radfems/TERFs/"TIRFs", anti-endogenic plurals, anti-theists/anti-spirituality, "blood quantum" enforcers, etc. This includes those who participate in white-knight type of bigotry, such as speaking over others with their views or using a stigmatized identity to scapegoat for issues in their communities. (In general, I don't fuck with anyone who engages in "we're the 'good ones'" type of identity politics shit and refuses to acknowledge any of their own community's ugly, "problematic", or nuanced definition aspects)
...✥ ... Fandom Discourse / Character Hate / Ship Hate / Morality Policing; re: character boundaries above, anti-yumeshipper, "[X character] is problematic" discourse, etc. I also don't like people who engage in policing how people spend/interact with fandom for the sake of morality posturing or performative activism (I am very critical of online activism, for reference)
...✥ ... Interactions with Posts/People/Content that I'm Not Comfortable Seeing; engaging with posts/content on my TL that is apart of anything above, you're mutuals with someone who has harassed me or that I have seen participating in harassment in the past, or I simply get a really bad vibe from what you post. It's not personal, sometimes I just feel it's not a good fit. You could have even just shared a NOTP of mine too many times and I was unable to moderate it with filters, just as a quicker minor example. This should be the catch-all criteria for anything I miss to add or don't want to add because of mental health triggers or privacy reasons.

Ensemble Stars!!

✥ Enstars Basic rank was 23; first time tiering, never gonna do again, but I'm so proud of how far my account has gotten and to be able to show my love for Tsumugi in a new beginning of his arc in the game.✥ I have works in zines; I was in "Starlight and Moonshine: A Keito and Eichi zine" and "SUMMER STARS! enstars festival zine", the former being completed here ( or alternatively, here ) and the latter is currently in production.

✥ This section is very WIP; I'm relearning how to be proud of myself and accept myself as being worthy of accomplishments.