And, this is how you find me, huh? Please, don't let us be found.
About / BYF
. Introduction .! we alternate between I/me and we/us to refer to ourselves due to being plural, or a system !Call us Reimu; that is our collective name, or refer to us as Wally or Eiden, if you have been disclosed to who is fronting.We are a 29 y/o mixed-origin plural with DID, BPD, and AuDHD. Experience soulbonds, a yumejin, and some of us align with otherkin experiences and reincarnation beliefs. Chronic body & identity dysmorphia due to it.Labels: white indigenous & two-spirit, genderfluid, transmasc gaybian, aroacespec and polyam; we embrace having seemingly contradictory/conflicting queer identities through the term "schrodien."^ The name we use was given to us by people we consider family, which is a common question of why we use a Japanese name when we're not Japanese. If you aren't comfortable with that answer, I'm sorry, but that's how it is and it's not meant to be appropriative. Our childhood and teenage years are full of experiences that don't involve us adhering to a nuclear family structure.. Fun Things .I'm a writer, both of fanfic and original fiction, and I specialize in character-internalized and non-linear narratives.I'm comfortable in handling darker topics in my works. I've been in a couple zines, and have a lot of orphaned works that are our there! My fan work portfolio is a WIP; I have the original documents of some of the orphaned works that I can provide if needed for future projects.Spiritual, but not religious.We are a yumeshipper; selective/complicated-sharing with Tsumugi Aoba and non-sharing with Zarina Kassir, Nozomi Madoka and Chitose Tsukura as sharing platonic/friend yumes, Joy (PAYDAY) as a familial yume adoptive sister, and Kyryll Chudomirovich Flins as a sharing yume (I project via Illuga though.)I commission art from time-to-time and now archiving it to my carrd since I pay for pro, lol.. Ettiquette around our Works 1 .Wally: We do not want constructive criticism on our writing unless it is explicitly requested. We don't consent to you using our works for generative AI training (our works are likely just poison for your model, don't even try). Eiden is my main editor, so technically we don't have a beta reader and mistakes in SPAG do get through in our works.
. Before you follow .Expect emotional instability; we are far from stable, and sometimes don't really filter or tag our venting when it happens. Our memory tends to suck due to dissociation and ADHD, so it's hard for us to keep up with friend circle stuff. Might say potentially hot takes or controversial things without intending to.
We don't really have a DNI, and only tend to skim people's carrds and strawpages to see if they'd end up on our "blocked" criteria, since that's more what a "DNI" actually means to us. Even then, we don't block if your DNI is vague or will block if we see concerning stuff in your posts/reposts.. Blocked? Reasons why: .⭑ discrimination against anyone for race, religion, queer identity, neurodiverse, or disability status.
⭑ part of a group that contributes to bio-essentialist ideals or inter-community bigotry: examples; TERFs / radfems, transmeds, anti-endogenic systems, cluster-B demonization, etc.
⭑ you participate in fandom discourse too often, or you harass people over fiction; pro-censorship talking points; purity culture / anti-kink; define "pro-ship" as "problematic ship" rather than the fandom stance it is.
⭑ you engage with our interests in a way that made us uncomfortable, bad takes, etc; don't wanna rock the boat for no reason.!! We are anti-censorship, but I refuse to use "pro-ship" or "pro-fiction" labels. I do not subscribe to the divisive rhetoric around the label and its roots of radfems astroturfing anti-sex and regressive ideas of gender and sex that hurt progressive feminism, and stigmatizes mentally ill folk. We collectively do not want to validate the political identity posturing of those finding excuses to censor fiction based on how "uncomfortable" they feel.I am annoyed with people spreading misinformation and making fandom miserable for not having the ability to have critical thought about the media they consume, feeling the need to make fiction and fandom their moral posturing space, fuck off. !!. Ettiquette around our Works 2 .Eiden: Please note I tend to be the one who responds to comments on our Ao3. There's, admittedly, a line where I might respond to criticism in Wally's place if it's wanting to clarify a narrative decision or provide feedback on something within the text. If you're hostile with me, don't expect me to be pleasant in replies.
Interests
Ensemble Stars!
Tsumugi Aoba ⭑ Eichi Tenshouin ⭑ Wataru Hibiki ⭑ Kanna Natsu ⭑ Nagisa Ran. watamugi, eimugi, wataei, tsumunatsu, polyeden, keileo, esuyume, madakoha, many more; very selective Tsumugi Aoba yume, platonic+sharing Nozomi Madoka & Chitose Tsuzura yume.──────Dead by Daylight
Jeff Johansen ⭑ Zarina Kassir ⭑ The Huntress. non-sharing Zarina Kassir yume .──────PAYDAY
Joy ⭑ Clover ⭑ Houston ⭑ Pearl. Clover/Joy, Hoxton/Houston, Clover/Pearl .
.familial+sharing yume of Joy (adoptive sister).──────Hitman: World of Assassination (and franchise). Diana/47 (fixed/no order switching) .──────Genshin Impact
Kaeya ⭑ Baizhu ⭑ Columbina ⭑ Kokomi ⭑ Flins (and many more). faelight/illuflins, eimiko, arlebina, sandbina, kaeluc, zhongli/tartaglia, haitham/kaveh, yaeyato, clorinde/navia; sharing Kyryll Chudomirovich Flins yume .──────Misc. Fandoms
The Summer Hikaru Died ⭑ Cult of the Lamb ⭑ KPDH ⭑ HSR ⭑ Nitro+CHiRAL games ⭑ Yuri on Ice ⭑ MDZS. sometimes these fandoms activate me like a sleeper agent when they get mentioned on my feed, sorry .──────Hobbies
linguistics ⭑ beading ⭑ reading ⭑ video games ⭑ criminology ⭑
curious about botany / mycology
Yumesona + Art
Meet the Yumesona/Self Insert: Wally & Eiden (redacted collective name / TBD)[Redacted] is a person with DID living in Japan after uprooting their life in [redacted] to start anew. Their old life filled with pain, they lived in a daze from day-to-day until meeting a certain idol in a chance meeting through a work friend insisting they go with to a live. As if sensing something amiss with them, the red-head unit mate of said idol had impulsively handed an item to [redacted]; a bottle with a mysterious liquid and ominous note saying "drink me."Not really having a strong grasp of personal identity, the two main alters of their system latch onto other people, copying their mannerisms as a way to blend in and survive. That bottle was left untouched until curiosity struck. At first, nothing happened. Days, weeks pass, before said work friend made the comment, "You look so different now. What's your new routine?"That day, [redacted] looked in the mirror with shock. Before, their mind would blank out the physical appearance of their body to spare them the trouble of how distressing it looks. That day, Wally realized he had taken the appearance of an idol he had been mirroring to get by in his daily life. The red-headed idol had given him something that gave them the ability to shapeshift.Zarina came into their lives some time later. After living with Tsumugi a while, Eiden disappeared into the Fog one late night. He doesn't quite recall the details of that night or how much time passed, other than he emerged from it with Zarina in tow. From then on, Zarina came to live with them, althought occasionally vanishing for long periods of time with Eiden, much to Tsumugi's worry.For platonic and familial yumes, Chitose and Nozomi are Wally's friends and they met during idol activity related business parties. Joy is their adoptive sister, in the sense they became friends through video games and Joy adopted them as online family.
Notes: Wally and Eiden's designs in their universe are based off of Eichi and Wataru in-universe, like factive/introjects of those people in-universe (the people behind the sona thinks its funny to incorporate who they are introjected off of in this way, so its for the bit). Reference sheet art TBD, but note that the shapeshifting aspect of a character who is based on someone who is white-indigenous means there are artworks that are pre-solidifcation of the sona's reference sheet. Most art going forward will be adjusted based on if it's Wally or Eiden in front (Wally = blue/silver hair with more semi-formal wear, Eiden = blond with more casual wear; Wally is more attached to Tsumugi and Eiden to Zarina). Earlier arts might feature them with lighter skin than in later arts for this reason.
Artists Featured:
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humbuns (VGen/Bluesky)
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Himina (VGen)
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daykuronuma (VGen/Facebook)
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jannadbunny (Bluesky)
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salqfaiths (Discord)
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eekykins (Bluesky)
Other Socmed
Portfolio
All works listed here are previous writing projects we have written or contributed to creatively that are not linked to our current Archive of Our Own account. Please note all orphaned works listed here are due to more giving them as "fandom property" is whether someone wants to use the ideas for them or not. We still claim contribution to them and have original documents that can be provided for other archival purposes. Does not feature all that we've written, only snapshots of works that survived the mental illness breakdown purges.These don't reflect our current quality of work, especially if older than 2020.Mind the tags and beware of NSFW and uncomfortable content.Our A03 account is here: https://archiveofourown.org/users/lovedbyajester
Fleeting Moment
Aoba Tsumugi/Hibiki Wataru ⭑ Explicit ⭑ 6,152 words - 3 chapters
https://archiveofourown.org/works/37785745/chapters/94341649──────Things you said...
Aoba Tsumugi/Hibiki Wataru ⭑ Teen ⭑ 969 words - one shot
https://archiveofourown.org/works/51637603──────Festive Vellichor
Aoba Tsumugi/Hibiki Wataru ⭑ Teen ⭑ 2,286 words - one shot
https://archiveofourown.org/works/43273516──────When Truths Bloom Into Light
Hasumi Keito/Tenshouin Eichi ⭑ Teen ⭑ 5,454 words - one shot
https://archiveofourown.org/works/55794964!! this piece was apart of "Starlight and Moonshine: A Keito and Eichi zine" !!──────The dress she never asked for, but doesn't reject.
Hasumi Keito/Tenshouin Eichi ⭑ Explicit ⭑ 3,123 words - one shot
https://archiveofourown.org/works/48466438──────Even As the Wind Blows, Your Scent Lingers
Aoba Tsumugi/Ran Nagisa ⭑ Explicit ⭑ 7,662 words - one shot
https://archiveofourown.org/works/26601670!! this was a 2017 fic in the Yuri on Ice fandom adapted to a new ship in 2020 !!──────The Dragon's Companion
Lan Huan | Lan Xichen/Nie Mingjue ⭑ Teen ⭑ 11,064 words - one shot / novella
https://archiveofourown.org/works/21708493!! this piece was part of "MXTX Reverse Big Bang" !!
misc works that are from other random projects
Good Enough #2: Issue of Skill piece
Hibiki Wataru/Tenshouin Eichi ⭑ General ⭑ 458 words - short fic
https://docs.google.com/presentation/d/1yfZS9K4iskhX740-jRx-D_2MThbtPV911aW6BC25Tyw/edit
Putting this quick addendum due to the fact the old Internet Archive link is not working that I held, so allow me to record what evidence of what I originally read and identified with as the term "schrodien":The original term was coined by a Tumblr user called vesicelestial and they state the definition as..."Schrodien [SHRO-dee-in] is an othellic* term describing an individual who has an identity that contradicts or appears to contradict itself at one or more points. This could be for many reasons, such as collecting terms and two or more terms contradicting, intentionally calling yourself two conflicting things for the reason of having conflicting identities, having identities that at first glance appear to be contradictory but actually fit together, and having a nuanced identity that doesn't actually conflict but is incorrectly perceived as conflicting.Schrodien is at its core about the experience of having a "confusing" identity that the user or others perceive as contradictory, whether it is or not."Examples given by the coiner of what would potentially fit under this label, but not exclusively, included..."...lesboys, isogender, traumaendo systems, systems who have conflicting identities due to being present in different headmates, an agender person who also collects genders, an alloaro person who is incorrectly perceived as either alloromantic or asexual, and some forms of alterhumanity."Personal: We/I resonated with this term due to multiple reasons; we are a DID system that also experiences spiritual plurality due to our spiritual practices/beliefs, our sexuality is considered gaybian because bisexual doesn't capture how we feel our bisexuality/multisexuality will never be heterosexual due to being genderfluid and multigendered (and that depending who you ask in our system, they will give you different answers to their sexuality), even if we're transmasculine as intended presentation. Even the fact that we're in polyamorous relationships despite being aroace feels like another contradiction of identity that we experience.Is it pedantic? Possibly, but it feels like I have to be, otherwise we often get treated like we are trying to be frustrating at describing our identity on purpose. This term meets that itch to remind others that if I can be this multifaceted of a sentient being on this planet called Earth, then so can you.source: https://www.tumblr.com/vesicelestial/685267088321986560/schrodien (If the link is now dead, this was the original coining post that I originally had the archived link for before that ALSO died...)
* for Othellic, this term doesn't have a clear cut definition for what it means as a modifier. It was coined by a now deactivated user named kenochoric and described a modifier term for identity labels that seem to "flip by a situation," loop, two sides of a coin, feel impossible to explain, or contradict each other. It's often seemed to be used with identity markers that have contradicting, seemingly beyond two dual poles of a spectrum, mirrored, or infinitely malleable interpretations of identity without those identities needing to be inherently othellic. Even my description does not give justice to how many have described how this term may or may not relate to themselves.source: https://www.tumblr.com/neoumbrellatime/782588667715846144/othellic-an-umbrella-term-for-things-that-flip-by (this relates to othellic as a modifer term, but it is a reblog and may vanish one day)